Q: How Did I Get Here?

A: The long way.

God prepares, heals, and refines you along the way. 

For nearly the last year, I built from a corner table at a local café.
I’d set up shop with my laptop, quietly working in the background while overhearing the day-to-day buzz of women’s lives; moms, college girls, professionals, all navigating their own rhythms.

What struck me wasn’t just the repetition of conversations surrounding weight, mental health, or hormones, but how deeply disconnected the solutions were from what women’s bodies actually need.

It wasn’t judgment I felt.
It was a rising fire in me.

I remember thinking; You’re trying so hard, and you’re being steered in the complete wrong direction. And while I sat there, overhearing women compare their latest diet changes and bio-hacks, I wanted to help, drop some pointers, offer a reframe, but I had no real ground to stand on.

No credentials.
No letters after my name.
No stamp of approval from a system that silences anyone who doesn’t play by its rules.

 

I first reached out to the Nutritional Therapy Association in early 2020. I was drawn to their curriculum and its emphasis on bio-individuality. But at the time, I was only just stepping into the larger idea of coming back into my body. I hadn’t lived through what was still ahead of me.

Because that’s the thing: so much had already happened. And so much still had to.
Law school. Burnout. Trauma. Baptism. Toxic relationships. Cross-country moves. Sobriety. Spiritual awakening.

Not the kind of awakening that turns into self-worship or looks to the universe for answers. But the kind we as believers are called to in Ephesians 5:14

Therefore He says:
“Awake, you who sleep,
Arise from the dead, 
And Christ will give you light.”

I used to think that level of intensity (spirituality) was only for the New Age.
Turns out, it’s biblical.

Remember, the devil can't create, he only perverts what God created.

“For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.” (Romans 8:6)

It was all part of a larger plan.
His plan.
A journey.
Because maybe the thing God is calling you to requires the depth of the whole journey.
He’ll prepare, heal, and refine you along the way.
No shortcuts.

 

This year, I finally said yes to the calling God placed in my heart.

I enrolled in the Nutritional Therapy program at NTA.
And I didn’t just enroll; I paid in full. 
I went all in, with the money earned selling tallow that I made with my own hands, standing behind a market table, connecting with women face to face, not in a bar, not behind a desk, but out in the open.

God knew full well the plans He had for Pink Cloud, and for me.

The Lord was preparing something real.
And it was time to match it with structure.

 

The day I clicked submit on that payment, I didn’t feel anxious like I used to about financial decisions.
I felt peace. “This is the right step” type of peace.

After enrolling at NTA, and stepping further into my own story, Pink Cloud began to take up more space.
So it was time to build in full.
Time to stop overhearing the problems and start contributing to the solutions.

 

I don’t know exactly what this will all become.

But what I do know is that I can’t take someone somewhere I haven’t already been.

And I’ve been the girl who:

trusted labels over my own body,
confused achievement with value,
gave too much, too soon, to men who offered too little,
stayed quiet in rooms I should have spoken in.

I’ve bought the supplements, followed the protocols, stuck to the diets; yet still felt something was missing.

 

Maybe you’re in the fog. Or maybe you are emerging from it.
Either way, I won’t teach you what I haven’t lived.
I’ve simply been to many places. That’s how I’ve learned the way home.

 

God’s design was never meant to be complicated.
It was meant to be known, trusted, and lived.
But we’ve veered so far from His design that we’ve been convinced we need gadgets, trends, and constant upgrades to mimic what He freely gave us.

I’m done sitting on the sidelines.
I’m building what I needed but couldn’t find.

If you’ve ever felt the nudge to speak up, shift direction, or simply begin again, this space is for you, too.

Because healing doesn’t always start with knowing the full plan.
Sometimes, it just starts with a yes to what God’s already written on your heart.

 

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Lexie is currently studying to become a Nutritional Therapy Practitioner and is the founder of Pink Cloud Naturals. She believes in cycles, rhythms, and the sacred design of the female body—while staying rooted in her faith. This blog is her way of making sure no woman feels too far gone to begin again. She'll be teaching in-person classes this summer, with client work opening later this year. More info to follow.
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